my reflection

In this quiet night, when there was heavy rain outside, I take a little time to think about my life
It has been almost a quarter century that God, in His authority, gives me chance to life in this beautiful world.
As time goes by, I've been changed consciously and unconsciously
Many times I hurt people I love and even God

I realize that In my deepest sadness or happiness, one thing never change that God is always by my side, even there was time I didn't realize His presence.

I sometimes wish that nothing in my life would be changed or gone, for I feel that I have got what I need, but God gave me different reality. Some people came and went, some things came and lost, without nothing I could do.

I felt that this life was unfair. I didn't know what next would be happened, whether it is good or bad for my life.
Then God reminds me that there is still a rainbow after heavy rain.

In this good friday, I look at myself.
How many times in life I gave complain about things happened
How many times in life I got angry for something I didn't get
How many times in life I didn't do my best just because I lost my vision
How many times in life I made other people down

With all that things I've done, I am not proper to get God's gift in Calvary
Then, His word comfort me

"He was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,and by his wounds we are healed" (Yes 53:5)

Then He said:

"In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world"

A promising promised is given by He, who was crucified and died, but then rose again.